Little Alexx Blog

Sometimes, relatively simple tasks are difficult. For the past 3 months, my phone has been broken. The software on the microphone was completely shot to hell and for the past three months, I have been either avoided calling people on the phone (Facetime me on my laptop instead;) or used someone else’s phone. It has honestly been annoying, but not so annoying that I did anything about it. However, this past week I felt really productive. I made myself an on going to do list of things I have been avoiding the past few weeks. It hasn’t been super fun, but it’s literally an adrenaline rush for me when I am able to check something off the daunting list. So, yesterday, I said screw it and bought myself a new phone. My family and friends are very proud of me, however it is definitely three months too late….. Whoops.

This week has been good though. A breath of fresh air after what has seemed like a really stressful past few weeks. Honestly, I needed this past weekend. I went to a very long brunch session with my gal pal Sky, where I was able to talk about whatever I wanted, laugh, eat good food, and have a few good drinks. Sunday was filled with yoga, sitting in the sun in the backyard, watching tv in bed and finishing all of my work for the week. I am a psychopath and decided a few weeks ago to add yet another class to my course load to complete my degree quicker…. Which sounds great in theory, till you are working full time all week and by the time Sunday rolls around, you are filled with dread and panic about finishing a bunch of papers. I know that there are some really good feelings in this world, but nothing is better than exiting out of all of your open tabs after completing all of your assignments for the week. Dear God, it is like a rush of live both rushes into and out of my body at once!!

There are 6 more weeks here left here at school, and less than 24 weeks left in my masters program and I am shocked with just how quickly this school year has went by. To be honest, I am more surprised by how quick this year has been. I have lived in Charleston now for almost a year and I literally feel like I have been here for years and yet I almost feel like it was just yesterday that I pulled up with all of my plants and Hemy half hanging out the window. Oh. And speaking of plants…. I think I may have reached my limit *I say breathlessly, in denial* I was trying to change up my bedroom just a little bit, because what else would I be doing at 10 pm on a Monday night, and I am gravely disappointed to admit that a thought went through my mind “wow, I have way too many plants”…. ugh. The shock and awe.

Anyways. So. Here I am. 23 years old. Feeling very old, yet also feeling way too young to have anyone take me seriously. I teach high schoolers. They are all taller than me. They are just a few years younger than me. I look like I should be one of them. of course, I still think I am 17 years ago. The other day, we had a fire drill and for a moment, I forgot I was the teacher. We were all supposed to go outside and line up, and here I was, lost in a crowd of students. I was talking to a few of them, joking around a bit, till we all got told to line up by one of my fellow teacher coworker, who I am pretty sure also forgot that I was not a student. Oh dear, how embarressing. I completely felt like I was back in high school, till I remembered, oh yes. Alexandra. You are a highly educated young adult who has a JOB!! I am still getting used to being called Ms. T…. I really enjoy teaching though. I have always wanted to teach and I was extremely lucky to have found this position. It all but fell in my lap. What a strange world it is that certain things have lined up to let me be directly here, typing this, and things have lined up for you to be reading this right now, whereever you are in the world, whatever you are going through.

I hope this week goes smoothly for you, that you complete your to do list, regardless of how easy or hard it may be. I hope that you know that you’re loved and appreciated by someone.

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Today’s Mantra:

“I AM proud of the little stuff I am doing for myself.”

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