Little Alexx Blog

Last week was exactly what my soul needed. I started my trip literally feeling like I was going to die. I felt so gross and sick. Granted, it was my fault to begin with. I didn’t get home till super late on Wednesday night and realized I hadn’t packed for my upcoming 3 week trip…. whoops. So I didn’t get much sleep to begin with. I woke up early early to finish packing up my stuff and felt the biggest and worst migraine of my whole life. Like, I wore my sunglasses to the airport and had to keep my window down because I felt sick to my stomach. Ugh, not good. I don’t do well being sicky, especially when I’m alone. I go 100% baby, and need to be taken care of. So I called my mom and cried to her about it. The older I get, the more I am beginning to realize that 1. My feelings get hurt so much easier now than they did when I was younger. 2. Absolutely everything hurts my stomach. Literally. Everything. And 3. If I have a migraine, I’m out for the count. I had already gotten my Covid results back, negative, so I knew I was good to go, but traveling now, especially with the current times, is even more exhausting for me.

Finally finally, I got into freezing cold Arkansas. There was still snow on the ground and I can’t say I was very happy to see that. But man, did my ears start popping, driving up and down those hills! Mary Elizabeth and her sweet mama picked Hemy and I up from the airport and normally I like to look semi cute and put together, but that day I literally looked like a truck had run over me…. (come on, I have no one to impress!) We got back to Mary Elizabeth’s place and she took care of me, made me some food, let me decompress and shower. That’s another thing about me. I now have to “decompress”??? What in the 80 year old woman am I ?!?

Anyways. So after I was able to recharge my battery, I called up Cassandra, made Mary Elizabeth get up, kissed Hemy goodbye and made our way down to our favorite college bar and grill, Grubs! Pre pandemic, Cass, ME, and I would meet up every Sunday afternoon, get a little day drunky drunk and have girls day together. It was so nice to come together weekly, and just have that bond. When I tell you I missed it…. I MISSED IT. We laughed till we cried, were the loudest people in the whole place, and ordered way too many drinks…. with extra sugar on the rim. I literally felt I was going to pee myself from laughing so hard, because for some reason (we were tipsy), Cass and I wanted to be cute together and drink Mary Elizabeth’s AppleTini at the same time, but couldn’t do it without bursting out laughing because our lips were getting to close to each other and we could see each other out the corner of out eyes. Eventually we just decided to close our eyes but that seemed to make it even more funny… picture and videos below to prove it.

My heart had been missing out on girl talk, gossiping about the lives of others, talking shit on our exes, and trying to avoid the topic of the shit show that is our own personal lives, which eventually are discussed after a few drinks. Gone were the days of us showing up to the bar in the tightest little outfit we owed. We were exhausted, freezing cold in Arkansas weather, and had no one to impress. Cass wore sweatpants, I wore a T-shirt and a sweater, and Mary Elizabeth wore a turtleneck. Hotties.

After too short of a visit, we each went our separate ways, and Mary Elizabeth and I went to have dinner with Joe and her mama. It has been a minute since someone else has cooked me a home cooked meal for me and it felt nice. It was good to be back in Fayetteville. As much as I knew I was never going to stay there long term, I still feel as though I was cheated out of some really beautiful months, so every time I go back, it’s a celebration. It’s my college town. A piece of my heart will always belong on that hill.

Mary Elizabeth and I fell asleep in our cozy pajamas and glasses, watching a movie on the couch at 9:30pm, like the little old Yiayia’s we are, and I had no problem with it. After such a long day of feeling death asking me to join him that morning, and then the highs of laughing so hard that my stomach was still hurting a few days later, it was a lot for Alexandra. I have determined that I am basically like a little puppy dog. I can get really really high energy excited and keep going and going and going but then also, I just get tuckered out and I’m done. Allow me to sleep for a bit and I’m back, baby.

The next day….. GRADUATION DAY!!!! Mary Elizabeth left early to get ready for a zoom interview so I had the place to myself (with Hemy, and he made himself completely at home).

So. Funny story…. As sunny as it is in Charleston, I do most of my work inside, so I have gotten a bit more pale than I normally am. So, I was thinking, dang I wish I was more tan because I’m about to look WHITE in these graduation photos today. I found some tanning oil stuff in Mary Elizabeth’s drawer, the kind you rub in with lotion, and I was like, eh, may as well try it….I did. And… nothing. It wasn’t showing up. So, I decide, let’s just maybe try a bit more. Andddd nothing. Ridiculous. I think it’s a dud, a waste of money. I don’t even rub it in too well, thinking it’s whatever. HA. DO NOT EVER DO WHAT I DID. FIRST OF ALL: IT WAS AN OVERNIGHT TANNING OIL. As the day went on and the night went on, I felt like I was getting darker? But I want too sure until I got back to Branson that night, took off my clothes and saw HOW TERRIBLE IT LOOKED ON MY SKIN. You should have seen my face the next morning, when I realized I just gave up on my upper half of my body. My neck was blotchy, I didn’t even touch my face and my chest was so dark, and I had a white stomach. Assume the oil will work. And don’t be stupid like me. (But honestly, where it did work, it looked great!)

My family came in for lunch that day and we are the loudest (most funny) but also just LOUD people. Why are we like this??? After, we went around campus and took photos of me in my cap and gown. I was frozen. Frozen, I tell you. Let it go, let it go, kinda frozen. But I got great pictures and I was just so happy to be back on campus. Gotta say though, definitely don’t miss how windy and cold Fayetteville is!!!!!

Graduation time….. it lasted all of 20 minutes. The chairs were separated, families were set in different areas, masks on. We stood up, flipped our tassels to the side, and made our way to the stage to smile for a picture. I’m actually really glad I did it. It was something to be proud of. Of course, me being the emotional weirdo I am, I cried through the entire thing.

Mama drove me back to Branson after, and while normally I would have gone out with my friends and surely woke up the next day with a headache, instead, on the night of my graduation, I did homework for my halfway completed masters program. Huzzah!

This break has been good for me. It’s been so nice to be with family and just relax. However, as relaxing as it was, I have been slightly stressed finishing my classes for this quarter! I am very proud to announce that as of yesterday, I am done and have a whole 3 days off before my next set of classes begin.

Christmas was wonderful. It was different than in the past, of course. We normally always have extra friends and people at our Christmas Eve dinner. But this year was good, still with way too much food, everyone yelling over each other, wanting to be heard… pretty typical family time.

So, aside from eating too much food, we have had lots of family time. We went to Silver Dollar City the other night and I loved it. It has been a couple of years since I have been and I just always think it’s so romantic… to go with my mom and my siblings 😂

Okay. This was a big freaking blog post so thanks for hanging with me. As it is my last blog till of 2020 (thank God!), and how I have severely lacked this year on posting (forgive me!), I decided I should end it in a bang.

I’ll see you next Tuesday, in 2021. Have a wonderful and safe New Year and know that’s I love ya.

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Today’s Mantra:

“I AM enjoying the last few days of the year and embracing all that comes with it.”

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