Little Alexx Blog

Another week, another blog post. Does anyone else feel like we’re stuck in the movie Groundhogs Day?? I feel like I’m looking a bit more like Bill Murray with every day that passes. Yikes!

This week sucked, to be honest with ya. I woke up a few days ago with heavy limbs and a hurting back. My head was pounding, and I just felt yucky. Few days later, waking up feeling like an elephant was sitting on my chest, of course, thinking I was dying because I’m the biggest hypochondriac I know, it came to me that oh wait, I’m not sick! I’m just having a panic attack! Surprisingly, I haven’t felt the physical symptoms of one in a very very long time and it was kinda scary for a minute. Between the stress, the full moon (did you see it?!? It was huge!), and lack of human interaction…. I wasn’t even surprised.

The reason I think this is so hard for us to grasp is the fact that I have no one to really look towards for stability. We’re all going through this. It’s not like a break up or even dealing with regular every day traumas, because we can always look to the next person and see how they got over it. Getting over my break up, I heavily invested in people and things to help maneuver me through my emotions, same as with trauma or drama in our lives. The difference with this is…. we’re all living through it.

However, I would like to give something of solace to those filled with a sense of dread or anxiety. For the majority of us, this isn’t a problem. This is an inconvenience. It would be a problem if you had a family memory or yourself dying right now without anyone there to help them. It would be a problem if you were homeless, freezing out in the cold, digging through trash to eat food. Right now, as the majority of us huddle in our homes, with full fridges and the comforts of an infinite amount of social media and program to keep us busy, we are experiencing an inconvenience of freedom and living our every day lives. Don’t get me wrong, yes. It is totally and completely okay to be sad or upset or disappointed with the outcome of this. But I challange you to just change your perspective just a little bit. While yes, my senior year has been cut short and I won’t be able to have a graduation ceremony, holy shit guys, I’m alive and healthy. I’m home with my family and my dog and I’ve got food in my belly and a platform to talk to you! Others aren’t so lucky.

Aside from our perspective change… let’s talk about what a turn off it is if someone doesn’t take this seriously. I’ve been in my home for a month now. Yes, I am privileged to stay home, not having to go out, and in turn, doing my part in keeping myself and my family safe. Others aren’t able to and I proudly say I believe that essential workers should get a big boost in their paycheck!!)

However, this seems to be a problem recently, where some people need to have a bit of a privilege check and understand why we are doing what we are doing. Yes, it sucks to be home all day without seeing friends or family or going out and being social. Guess what. Get over it. Stay home. Go out only if ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY. Yes, go out for a walk or a run or to get some sun, but go alone. Video message your friends, watch a movie on FaceTime together. I find it ridiculous if you’re going out and hanging out with people and not caring what happens. Be okay with being alone with yourself. Enjoy it. You may just find out you like yourself. Grow a little bit of empathy for others.

Stay home, stay safe, stay sexy. Because it’s totally unsexy if you’re being an asshole.

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Today’s Mantra:

“I AM doing my part and staying home.”

Blessings, a