Little Alexx Blog

The goal for my life is to live everyday as if it were summer. I want all the feelings one gets when thinking about summer. I want the heat, the sweat, the smell of Australian Gold, I want the fresh fruit and the knowledge that the sun will come out every single day….

I’ll definitely admit to just waking up from a nice long nap, soaking in every last bit of this Florida sun I can. I love the feeling of the rays warming my bones the Midwestern winds have frozen over the past few months. I’m out on the beach, snuggled with a good romance novel, and my straw hat, relishing in the fact I know that when I go in tonight, I’ll have a nice peach color on my skin.

I’ve said it before, but I am 100% a beach girl. As soon as I got here, the first thing I needed to do was to feel the sand squish between my toes… while I was in Hawaii and Greece less than a year ago, it felt like too long since I’d smelled the salt in the air and felt the sand on my body. Now that I am at this stage in my life of having complete independence and mobility, the bigger the desire to live a life I’ve always wanted is. It’s so close I can almost taste it.

While summer to some is a time to relax and go on vacation, summer for me has been all about working and doing all I can to get ready to face the trials of the new school year ahead of me. However, I relish in the work I do. I love to come home after a long day of work, knowing I made money and did good. I love that I can wake up in the morning, and my day is open to many possibilities. I personally hate the cold and will do anything I can to get away from it, so in the winter, I feel very limited to what I can do, which usually ends up with me shutting myself in my room, in bed trying to be as warm as possible. In the summer, I’m free to do as I wish. The days are hot and the nights are warm, and I feel as though there are endless possibities as to what I can do with my life.

Now, mind you, I’m currently in Florida and already my attitude has changed 180 degrees since getting here. I think my seasonal depression is slowly melting away, with every beam of sunlight that hits me. Alas, I know that when I return home, I’ll be putting in a full hours worth of time under my Happy Light to try to get even an ounce of what I’m feeling now, so I’m enjoying it as much as possible.

But while I’m here and in the mood I’m in, I just wanted to say that for the first time in a while, I’m hopefully. Not like I was hopeless when I was in Arkansas, but my spirits were lacking. I’m tired. I’m ready to move on with my life. I am feeling that ‘seniorites’, quite seriously before I left. As much as I am a creature of habit and enjoy having things go my way, I suppose it’s a mark of maturity because I’m ready to go out and really live my life. Of course, living life means screwing up. And while I’d like to avoid that, it would be like asking the waves of the ocean to not hit as hard on the sand as they do. It’s bound to happen, like the tide changes. I wish you were here with me now, to enjoy this moment. I’ll be sure to enjoy it for the whole lot of us.

You got this. The sun will come out again, the flowers will bloom, the birds will chirp, and summer will be back.

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Today’s Mantra:

“I AM assured that my days will be good.”

Blessings, a