Little Alexx Blog

Who was Alexandra before Tsahiridis? For those who don’t know me, I have been Alexandra Tsahiridis for 2 years. I am her and she is me. I cannot think of myself without that name, that identity. I spent so many years without her. What a name it is, huh? When Alexandra Tsahiridis became a legal entity, she became to shape into the woman who writes to you today. Once upon a time, there was a 17 year old Alexandra that looked like me… But was a shell of a girl. She had dreams of being a new person. She had dreams of a future without limits, without holding back. But man… she was a sad girl. Angry at the world and at God.

She turned 18 and became me. Who I am today. When I took the name of my mother’s side of the family, I became a new woman. I didn’t ever consider any other name. I embrace my mother’s side of the family, the ones who have loved and protected me till no end, when it felt like the whole world was against me. I think in the moment as the judge signed the papers allowing me a new start in life, I really truly did become a woman. I was reborn.

Not many people understand what it is like to have a new identity. Most of us are born with a name. Sometimes randomly, our parents give us a first and middle name that others will call us for the rest of our lives. However, there are names that cannot be randomly given. Wives take their husbands names, wars are fought over the legitimacy of these names. They are apart of us. It is something we identify with. Wielding a name, you are forever apart of a family, a community, a history.

What no one talks about are those who don’t want to be apart of name. I sure didn’t. As I spoke to the judge at my name change hearing, I choked back tears as I told of what this change would do to my life, the freedom I would possess. Gone were the days of being identified as someone’s something. I would be free to go on to my new life at university living and being a new person. And I did.

I am enjoying this life of mine to the fullest. I am so new to it and I have a whole world in front of me so close I could reach out and touch it. I am embracing experiences as they come my way and making the 14 year old Alexandra proud of the woman she has become. I was given the gift of a new life. It’s not too late for you to do the same thing. Do what needs to be done and embrace it. You are only given so many hours on this planet. Use the time you have.

Today’s mantra: 

“I AM proud of who I am and who I will become.”

be proud of you and love.

blessings, a