Little Alexx Blog

Goodbye sophomore year and hello junior year. The last week of school went well, amid rushing to finish finals and packing all that I own in my little car.

I cannot believe how quickly this past year has gone.  I am sort of freaking out because I am so close to graduating and still feel at times I am a 7 year old, as many of my friends would describe me. Time goes by quick when you’re having fun, or having multiple existential crises (thank you Philosophy) But honestly, if you aren’t having an existential crisis at least once a day, are you truly living life? More on that later. 

Hello hello summer, I’m back in Missouri for 3 months and having to relearn what it is like to be stuck in traffic dealing with 9 million tourists. I leave for Florida in a few days and cannot wait for it. I haven’t be on vacation in so long and the ocean is calling my name!!

So, my mama broke her ankle last week in the most anti-climatic way ever, and has been commanding the home from the comfort of her bed and her cool little scooter. Mother’s day lunch was brought to you by yours truly. I personally like having complete control over the kitchen so I enjoy doing it myself. Just me, my music, and the food. I’m also a pretty dang good cook.

Speaking of existential crises, I was having a solid conversation with my buddy, Harris, who always induces great conversation topics. He brought up the concept on what happens after this life? During finals week I actually wrote on a theory of an afterlife for one of my theology classes. What is after this life? Harris and I were at dinner and I honestly lost my appetite because I finally had a moment to just sit and consider it all. And to be honest, it scared me. I was silently freaking out because I came to the realization that I am one day going to be gone. I think we have all thought about it, but it just kind of hit me at dinner. The chunk of bread that I had just eaten all of a sudden got very dry in my mouth and it was hard to swallow. There is a philosophical theory that basically it is absurd to fear death. It is going to come to everyone. While it is unreasonable to fear it, it is however reasonable to fear how one is to die or when. I fear dying too soon. I fear being forgotten. Will you be forgotten? My life on this earth is barely a blimp in the story of this world, as is yours. If I cannot be remembered by a ton, I wish to be remembered by a few. Since talking to Harris, I have thought about it a little here and there. I have honestly been kept so busy doing errands and working that my alone time to consider life and all her mysteries has been cut a little short, but I wish to come back to this topic at a later date. I would love to hear your thoughts. Is it unreasonable to fear death? How do you wish to be remembered? Tell me your thoughts. We don’t know much for certain including what tomorrow may bring. All we know for certain is where we are today. Right now.

Lots of picture and reviews for you lovely people next week!!! I cannot tell you how excited I am!!!!!! Make sure you hit the follow button and remember to check back in for a new blog post every Tuesday at 5 o’clock! Love you all.

Today’s Mantra:

“Everything is vibrating with energy. All of Life is singing a unique song. I AM part of a magnificent symphony.”

Love till the end and beyond.

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