“I don’t even care”

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Why do we live in a society that doesn’t ‘care’. Come on people. Let’s see some passion. Why are we so disconnected? Hello, defense mechanism??!?

If we don’t CARE, we don’t FEEL, therefore we don’t HURT (as bad) 

I will be the first person to come forward to admit I put up that front. Someone hurts my feelings? Oh, I’m fine. I don’t even care. It’s whatever.

Grainy

WRONG.

Stop doing this. It’s not healthy. And if you have ever been to a 5 am spin class, sometimes getting healthy hurts like a bitch. ( I literally died a little bit after going to that class, RIP Alexandra’s spin class career 2017-2017. )

“Energy cleansing is not a glamorous process. It is not good vibes, yoga, and buddha bowl. It’s heavy, deep, and can feel very ugly. Most people like to pretend that healing is just magic, and positive vibes. Healing is accepting and integrating painful experiences from the past. Honestly and transparency are important. Allow yourself to feel whatever you feel and don’t hide it. Don’t be ashamed of it ever. Don’t feed into the new age movement. It does more hard than healing” -Some random post I found on Instagram

But really though. If we all were honest and wanted to admit it, we would all agree that it is easier to just rub it off, disconnect and move on like nothing bad ever happened. And we wonder why people grow cold…

So, going back to me dying in spin class…  I have really been working hard to get physically back in shape. If you knew me in Jr. High and High School, first off, sorry. And second, I was semi-athlete. I stopped sports my senior year after golf season to focus on class and working a ton, so I let myself get lazy. Don’t worry, this isn’t a healthy fit blog, but it has been an issue of mine that I can’t shake. Anyways, I didn’t gain that freshman15, if anything I lost weight but I realized I didn’t like what I saw. What are we to do if we don’t like something that is changeable? CHANGE IT.  I stopped my yoga practice about a year ago and have been feeling a little lost without it. I moved to a new town and didn’t know any studios who could push me to improve. That and a poor college students budget, I am now stuck trying to find a new place to put my energy. So, I have been working out every day, running for about an hour and then hitting the gym (my poor knees, I’m actually 80 years old) and honestly, I feel like absolute garbage if I miss a day. My body craves it. I had just realized that I have been spending so much time getting my mental and emotional self healthy, that I had been neglecting a major part of me. Physically. It’s a good kind of hurt.

If this song doesn’t make you want to find the love of your life and travel, I don’t know what will. I LOVE THE LUMINEERS. Enjoy, loves.

 

Today’s Mantra:

Every time I choose love over fear, I AM changing myself and I AM changing the world. 

Radiate Love

 

Let’s love a little more today.

blessings, A

 

 

 

 

2 thoughts on ““I don’t even care””

  1. Let me be the first to say great advice. You have put it a little bit more elegantly than I ever have. Stone-cold killer attitudes derive from this it seems. Developed from an earlier age due to whatever. Heartbreak. Mostly.
    “If we don’t CARE, we don’t FEEL, therefore we don’t HURT (as bad)”
    It’s truly a wonder how some people shut themselves in to avoid all emotional conflict, it is honestly one of the hardest thing to do. If it wasn’t such a sad thing I would genuinely congratulate the people who do it for their ability of staying on two feet and not be in a depressed state.
    Not that it is my place, being a random wanderer of internet blogs, but I feel like I can since I do this occasionally. Don’t let physical exercise be an escape from developing your emotions and soul. I’m not the biggest fan of drinking, weed or other drugs, but I noticed one day my habits of exercise was a sort of drug for me to escape my reality I was living. I would want to do my part to make sure no one else does.

    Looking forward to your next entry. Have a good week.

    Stay Strong. Stay Healthy. Stay Happy.

    Astor

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    1. Thanks for your comment, Astor! I enjoy any and all feedback. I think that the cycle of being hurt and then hurting others is just lack of emotional maturity and awareness of reality.
      About your concerns… We are all trying to fill the holes of hurt with things, such as drugs, drinking, social media, relationships, working out, ect; and I became aware that I was doing that. I don’t think I addressed it in my blog, but I am working through my emotional and physical health together, as one, In a moderate and cleansing way.
      Thank you for your comment again. It was very insightful! Enjoy my posts! Namaste.
      Alexandra

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