Last year, my word/phrase of the year was uncomfortable and oh my, how greatly 2020 rose to the challenge of encapsulating it perfectly. After some very serious thinking, a lot of pondering, ya know, long walks on the beach, yada yada, I figured out what I want 2021 to look like for me. I plan on being extremely selfish this year. With my body, with my time, with my love, and fucks given. (Sorry mom).
You see, it’s January and unlike in past years, this is the first birthday I’m not really super excited for. 23 sounds so old to me for some reason. I am getting older. I have implemented a 7 step skin care routine into my daily schedule. My knees crack and pop when I’m in bed (sexy), And honestly, I just don’t have the time in my life to be doing things ‘just because’. I am really tired of allowing people to hurt my feelings, manipulate me, and play with my heart. I have so much love to give someone and only those close to me are allowed to receive it. I’m not interested in polite niceities. I don’t have the time. You get my time when I get yours. You get my love when I get yours. This year is about fairness and not taking shit from anyone. In the past, it was never 50/50. With friendships, relationships. I felt as though my love was being taken advantage of and I’m kinda sick of it.
Please don’t get me wrong. I have this weird middle finger up to the world attitude right now, but I feel as though I have to be slightly more aggressive with myself to make it known that I’m not playing!!! If someone disrespects me, I’m not waiting around. There are too many people out there, too many opportunities and experiences that I don’t need to wait around for someone to figure out what they want and where I belong in it.
Damn, I’m loving. I love too hard, too deeply, too much. When Alexandra is in love, she loves… This year, I’m going to love Alexandra the way she deserves to be loved.
Don’t you worry. I don’t plan on leaving destruction in my wake. Do no harm and take no shit from anyone. Welcome 2021. You’ve got a lot to accomplish. Let’s go.
Today’s Mantra
“I AM doing everything I can to be the happiest I can be.”
blessings, a
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Wow!!! I wish I knew all of this at 23 instead of 43!! You go girl. Make it matter. Make it count. You got this. I never doubted it for a second♥️ love mama
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