About a month ago I hatched a plan with Josh to surprise my mom for her birthday. It was going to be the first birthday I hadn’t celebrated with her and being that I am half way across the country and schedules worked out, I left my house last Wednesday in South Carolina at 4 am and got to Little Rock at 9am! From there, Josh was so sweet and took time off work to drive us down to Big Cedar where I had planned an intimate surprise dinner for mom with family and friends who love her. Let’s just say, she was extremely surprised. I avoided talking to her basically all day because I was so scared she was going to try to FaceTime me and see that I was not in fact at my home but at Josh’s place… Honestly I don’t know if she was more excited to see me or Josh but there were definitely tears. Happy birthday mama. I hope you enjoyed it because you deserve it and more❤️
I’ve been lucky to spend the last few days in Little Rock, and although I was here about 3 weeks ago, the time spent goes by way too quick… leaving gets harder and harder every time!!! BUT, it makes the time we have all the more special ❤️ while it was a shorter time to visit, we had a JAM PACKED weekend and did a ton of driving. Monday night was our only time to fully relax at home, which resulted in us passing out at like 8:30, granted, with full tummies and being lulled to sleep watching A Star is Born… we really are a little old couple… I have absolutely no issue with it!! I’m just stupid happy with you.
So much has been happening the past few weeks that need to be caught up on! I spent about 3 hours waiting at the DMV in Charleston, and can finally announce that I am an OFFICIALLY A SOUTH CAROLINA RESIDENT. I’m absolutely thrilled to start this new chapter here and to have the official documentation showing it!
Classes have been going extremely well, keeping me busy with stuff to do. However, I’ll admit, it is way different than what I am used to. For the past 16 years of my academic life, I have been in a classroom full of students learning! Being online is obviously very different. I have homework, lectures, discussions, but I feel that lack of connection I normally felt in a lecture hall physically watching my teacher teach. Regardless, it definitely is so much easier in terms of how flexible my schedule is. It works well for me because all I need is WiFi and I’m good. Sunday, Josh had a photoshoot so I stayed snuggled up at home and finished a paper while he was gone. I’m actually enjoying trying to figure out time management and a schedule! You know me, I love my schedules. And as you know, the past few months haven’t really given me any stability…. I’m a planner at heart and sometimes way over plan, but I have the best intentions! Hahaha
It’s just a strange time for me, for sure. I’m in a different state without friends or family, in a relationship with a man 12+ hours away from me, doing school online on an island in the middle of a pandemic. I’m extremely ready to get out and going! What a time to be alive y’all. I was on my way to the grocery store last week and just singing along to my music, windows down, hair wild, and I get to a stop sign and look over to the testing site on my island, where doctors and nurses are in full protective gear performing Covid tests on people. I feel as though we are in a dystopian sci-fi movie. When I rang in the New Year, I sure as hell didn’t think 2020 was going to be this way. However, I’m so grossed out now by the thought of being in a group of people unmasked. I watch movies and think, what are these people doing, shaking hands and dancing in clubs!!!!! Anyways, I personally like wearing my mask and you should too. Wear your mask, OVER YOUR NOSE PLEASE!!! Also, please register to vote, thank you!
I worry a lot about the future. Naturally, a future that is unpredictable is quite scary for me. No, not in a the sky is falling and I’m chicken little kind of way, but a what happens if I could have prevented something from happening and I don’t realize until later. Trust me, I have had many many sessions with my therapist talking it through. I sometimes feel this dread go through me feeling like what happens if nothing ever changes? Or what happens if it DOES change and I don’t like the result. I struggle with feeling overly positive that everything is going to be okay. I try to work through it and even then, I get down on myself that I couldn’t naturally be more positive and upbeat. I’m rambling but I definitely do deal with the anxiety of an unknown future and wanted to let you know that whatever season of life you’re going through right now, the good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly, we are all going through it together. And, as time passes, I am realizing more and more that apart of the fun of things is the unknown, I just have to be brave enough to take the step and dive in deep.
Today’s Mantra:
“I AM trying to live in the present and not worry too much about the future.”
Blessings, a
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