Little Alexx Blog

Hi friends and happy New Year! Thank you for allowing me to go a little MIA on here the past two weeks. Not only was I enjoying time with my family but also working like an actual crazy woman. I have been working ridiculous hours recently, but I am very pleased to announce that I have paid my school bill for this semester in about a week’s time!!!!! Woo pig sooie! So, I started off my new year rolling silverware in the back of the restaurant that I work out. Super thrilling… Oh the joys of turning 21 AFTER the New Year….

This year…. I learned what love was. and what love was not. I learned that sometimes it’s best to shut up and listen, and sometimes better to stand up for myself. I found and I forgave. Lots of hellos, a few goodbyes, and many see ya laters. I learned, as I seem to do every year, to respect myself. I don’t deserve mediocre love and friendship. I had my first fight with my roommate, which we made up over pancakes at IHOP, I cried for a week straight this winter, I laughed until I almost peed my pants, I fell in love with professors and their classes, I decided where I am applying for grad school, I discussed politics and religion with strangers, I went to my first women’s march, I stood up to bullies, I left organizations that weren’t helping me grow, I made decisions on my own. I watched my friends succeed and fail, I was there to help them as they were then there to help me. I finally found that pair of jeans that fit just right in all the right places, I got over my fear of the doctor’s office and went for a check up, I started a new job, I bought more plants, I got wrist tattoos and now feel like an actual badass every time I do something that involves my hands, I feel closer to my heritage, I have decided to stop cutting my hair completely, I grew closer to my mom, my ultimate best friend and have slowing weaned off by only calling her three times a day, instead of seven. I grew closer to my baby sister, as I hope she ends up nothing like me, but we can only hope, I finished my first semester of my junior year of college, I turned 20 and am about to turn 21… finally. I wore makeup because I wanted to, not because I felt like I had to, my heart broke watching Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper in “A Star is Born”, I stopped consuming anything dairy, I am 4 years pork free, I am listening to my body and doing what is best for me, I worked my ass off and paid all my bills, I started the year and ended it single, for the best. I had my first real relationship and it was good for me. Lessons learned. I still can’t dance for shit, but dance as if no one is watching me, I definitely feel like I’m cooler than I am, but enjoy faking it till I make it. My favorite band released their new album and I spent a few hours (or days) crying over it, I have modeled more than ever, I was published in British Vogue, I saw Post Malone in concert, as well as Penny & Sparrow and The OhHellos. I got my first speeding ticket, my eyesight got worse, my hearing is completely shot, and I have a new wrinkle on my forehead, I am in awe of my grandparent’s relationship, cherishing every minute we all have together, I am taken back by how grown up my brothers are, how smart Nick is and how tall baby Dimitri has gotten, I am overcome by the courage that Big has to be in such a crazy loud Greek house. I went back to therapy, I am trying to be honest with myself, I prayed for the first time in a long time, I became more aware, not only of myself, but others. I cried in a cathedral in Chicago, I read a novel on a beach in Florida, I have opened my heart with love for others. My creative side has been touched and has blossomed. I no longer fear the future, but embrace the unknown. I am ready for more best days. Today is my day.

Welcome to 2019, my beautiful readers.

Today’s Mantra: 

“I AM welcoming loving light and energy.”

love to you and yours.

blessings, a